I was almost a kid when I said goodbye to him.
At that moment I knew that it was almost like I lost him as if he were dead. I knew that I would never see him again, both of us being the same persons.
I was sending Christmas cards each year as if I was praying for his soul.
Then I learned that he passed away. This time in real world.
His death was not an another goodbye but getting together again.
Suddenly I was the the same kid of many many years ago. I could never imagine that I could be that child again but I was.
How heavy load it is, to be two different persons at the same time.
(For Richard A. Smith)
