One day, if I can turn back and look at this very day,

There will be nothing that I will have regrets for

For I have dedicated all my power to every offered moment

For I have lived every offered moment with full conscious.

At that moment I knew that it was almost like I lost him as if he were dead. I knew that I would never see him again, both of us being the same persons.

I was sending Christmas cards each year as if I was praying for his soul.

Then I learned that he passed away. This time in real world.

His death was not an another goodbye but getting together again.

Suddenly I was the the same kid of many many years ago. I could never imagine that I could be that child again but I was.

How heavy load it is, to be two different persons at the same time.

(For Richard A. Smith)

This is not very meaningful for he would not be the same person he is today, if he had lived at that time.

Some of the seesaws were sufficiently firm in equilibrium and did not get effected. However for the others equilibrium was like hanging by a thread and arms flipped over towards the side he touched.

He thought he was just to all the seesaws that he interacted since he was applying exactly the same force to all.

Maybe he was right or maybe not.

I was astonished and asked ‘Why?’

She said: ‘Then I have the control over the distance between us. I apologise and we are close again. If  I feel that I was standing for the right in our quarrel, then the control is at him and if he does not feel sorry we are not as close anymore’

One can be visualised as confined to a freedom land with four different boundaries at each border. One boundary is at our relations with other people, the second arises from our relation to God, the third boundary is physical constraints and the fourth one is the limitations we set for ourselves. Of course there are interactions between these four as well.

Confinement to a small or a larger freedom land does not matter much for an individual as long as one does not have the desire to expand the existing boundaries. Equal satisfactions from life could come from having a small freedom land or bigger freedom land if one has no problem with boundaries.  Some might enjoy the challenge to expand boundaries but some might seek for even more confinement. Any comparison for different satisfactions in different size freedom lands would have to be subjective.

What makes a difference is in the direction where there are no boundaries. That is, not towards the four borders but towards the sky. This is the ‘discovery’ direction; towards the sky through aesthetics, science, curiosity, art, music, travelling, learning, searching, discovering…

If there is one objective comparison between having a smaller freedom land and a bigger land, those who have the latter have a stronger tendency to look up to the sky and spend more time in it.

Could that be true that nature used ‘creativity’ to increase her capabilities through humans ?

However, the original feeling has evolved to a pleasant one along generations.